Why I’m Questioning My Purpose
Purpose is just such a big, subjective word and difficult to wrap your head around if you don’t feel you have it.
So much of my life I’ve felt that way. What am I REALLY suppose to be doing with my life?
I thought it was one thing, had it, lost it, chased it, changed it, but never really felt the next thing was it.
I’ve always worked hard and done well at what I’ve done but inside I just felt there was something more I was suppose to do with my life. I was questioning my purpose.
Fear of Not Finding My Purpose
I would never admit it to most people, but I was afraid I would not find my purpose and in the end, my life would not make a difference. I would not accomplish anything that really mattered. I wondered Do I Have IT?
I found myself drawn to those who I wanted answers from but who usually left me with more questions. Big questions. Deep questions. But questions that pulled back the covers and really made me wrestle with my thoughts.
These questions weren’t easily answered but overtime I began to develop some clarity. Without it, I had no focus.
My wise counsel ultimately led me to Question My Purpose and ask these two simple yet vital questions:
Question One – What Do I REALLY Enjoy Doing?
Ironically, there are things you’re good at but simply don’t enjoy. Crazy, huh?
It’s easy to say we enjoy things we’re good at but is it actually true? I found myself partial on a lot of those answers which means I didn’t really enjoy them.
This is key in discovering your purpose. I want to really enjoy this activity because ultimately it’s what I want to spend a majority if not all of my time doing the rest of my life.
I want to lose track of time when I do it. I want to smile, be fully engaged, and not want it to end. Ever.
What do you really, really enjoy doing in your life? If you know the answer, you may be on to something…
Question Two – When Do I Feel the Most Fulfilled?
At the end of the day, there were a lot of things that really drained me. I felt like I had a skill in doing them but they simply left me exhausted and unfulfilled.
When I looked at those activities and analyzed their affect on me, I learned something about myself. There are very few things that actually fulfill me and leave me more energized after doing them.
I was on to something.
Others that I trusted were affirming me that they could tell this was an area of passion for me that was bringing me life.
If they really knew me, they could tell this was missing in my life and I was finally discovering something about myself they seemingly knew all along.
This Isn’t Fair
It doesn’t seem fair. Why couldn’t they just tell me the answer and save me all of this time?
Simply because this is a process in life that must be self-discovered.
The comparison is a teacher just giving you the answers and you wrestling with the problem to come up with the answer on your own.
Sure, it’s easier for the teacher to answer the questions for you. But the value really comes in the process of discovery more than anything else. It’s what you learn about yourself that develops your personal growth.
When we can come up with the answer with the guidance of others, we truly get it, understand it, and own it.
Purpose is a lot like that. It’s big. It’s truly impactful. And it’s very personal.
This led me on a personal journey of deep thought and reflection which I feel like I’m FINALLY at the implementation of the answer.
I’ve met so many people who were where I was at awhile ago who just want the answer from the teacher but not willing to do the homework and wrestle through the process on their own.
But those willing to work through the process will ultimately find the answers. It may start today for you asking the above two questions and really being willing to Question Your Purpose and think through your responses.
They will change. They will need to be edited and revisited. But remember the process is SO good for you in the end.
Purpose is SO personal and must be individually discovered. There is such a struggle and beauty in the process that produces growth and maturity.
Some people just seem like they naturally and easily find it. But most people must go through this challenging process to find its answer.
I challenge you to Question Your Purpose and find clarity in this key area of your life.
What is your answer to the following two questions:
1. What do I really enjoy doing?
2. When do I feel the most fulfilled?